I live in a new house now. I started moving over from the old side to the new about six weeks ago. I’d always had a deadline of 1st April as that’s when Tom, my lead builder, was free again to come back to the project. That also gave me enough time to complete the … Continue reading Devotion
After Fidd died I felt weightless for a while; untethered. I thought about locking up the house, leaving my job and going away to the other side of the planet. I had a tempting invitation to South Africa, to visit one of my oldest friends, and then I wondered about Australia, where I have many … Continue reading What next?
I’ve been dreading writing about the funeral, but I think it deserves a post of its own. It was a very intense, beautiful day, although probably the hardest of my life. I don’t particularly like recalling it, but perhaps in future I will want to. A number of people have also asked me to share … Continue reading Funeral
There is a very defined procedure for what is called “a sudden death in the community” and it kicks into gear very fast. Fiddian’s death was recorded at about 12 minutes past 11pm on a Friday night. I wasn’t paying close attention, but I reckon the three air ambulance people and the first responder were … Continue reading Death (Part 2)
It is almost one month exactly since Fiddian, my husband of 8 years, partner of 14, died in front of me in our living room in Bossiney Court at the far-too-young age of 61. The moon was full the night before, and so bright that it had woken me at 5.30am and prompted me, most … Continue reading Death (Part 1)
I’ve been thinking about change and how we adapt to it, and what we take from the environment immediately around us. Since January 6th I’ve been reading Hanif Kureishi’s magnificent daily blogs about his life since he became paralysed after a fall in Rome. His world, which was previously planet-sized with possibility, has shrunk to … Continue reading Looking for Lundy
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